Life is unfair..

I was in my Aural class today.

The lecturer was so fun!

She's so funny hehe. And i LOVE her Russian accent, :D

She seperated us into 2 groups for an activity,

and one group was bigger than the other,

then she looked at us and smiled n said,

"Oh nevermind, life is unfair :D"

haha..

then i started thinking..

hmm..

thats true.. life is unfair..

in fact, nothing is fair.. unless if u'r lucky enough to get everything u want..

if not, u just gota stick to it, and learn to accept it.
Cherish what you have, dont complain for what you dont have,

dont compare yourself with those who have what you want,

and look at those who dont have what you have,

you'll live life happier.

^_____^

my work place...

I sat down on the floor, and did some work.
my floor suddenly became my desk. hehe.
sooo messy i didnt even hav the mood to tidy it up.
haihz..
Life is a mess..
I'm a mess.

Broken Pieces..

As usual, i was looking at my MSN list, trying to look for someone to talk to..

and looking at ppl's personal messages.

then i saw my cousin sister's personal message.. it says,

"Its funny how someone can break your heart,

and you still love them with all the broken pieces.."

Then i thought for a moment..

Yup, i agree.

Some people may call it stupid..

but i guess that's love.

It's something u cant control..

If u really love someone,

no matter how bad they hurt u,

u juz cant help but keep loving them,

and end up hurting urself more.

Sometimes.. when u'r so in love with a person,

u can only see that person,

u forget abt urself.

I had forgotten abt myself..

and i have learnt my lesson.

i'd been loving him with those broken pieces,

and now im tired, and i need to wake up,

cuz now i know that i deserve better.

i cant let him hurt me anymore,

he didnt even care abt me..

sometimes the whole love thing is just stupid,

but we always fall for it.

and that hurtful feeling..

cuts ur heart into pieces.

u just need to pick up these pieces n move on..

I guess this is how we'll learn to be smarter,

and thats the only way to learn.

dear readers..again..

hi :D again.

I changed the layout of my post..

Dont know if u've noticed but the words are now in the middle of the post..

so please please give me comments on how it looks,

is it easier to read this way?

or do u prefer it the other way?

no one commented on the colors i changed, so i think the colors are ok ya?

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THANKS!

-viv-

xoxo

iron-ing

haih.. im trying to iron my clothes.. T-T that stupid iron i dono how to use.

so scary!

its supposed to hav steam coming out frm the hole after boiling with water n salt..

IT LEAKED!! >_<

i was like.. AHHHH!!! n called mom for help :P

LOL. how pathetic. i so stupid!

:/

im sitting here n a lot of things are going on inside my head...

i'm making myself sick.. i skip meals and when i finally eat, i feel like throwing up.
>_< and im feeling kinda down lately cuz i dun get much attention frm him.. in fact, NONE. kinda lonely here.. i started talking to myself. >_< i cried whole night last night.. i hate myself for being so weak. well i guess love is good when its right.. when its not, its hell. i stare at my laptop all the time.. n looked at my msn list. a lot of so called 'friends' are online, but no one talks to me. only those regular 'customers' of mine.. lol, those whom i always bug and annoy are the ones willing to chat with me. and i feel so sorry for them cuz they hav to talk to me again :P every single day. >_<
i'd like to apologize and thank these ppl for always being there for me to cheer me up when i needed someone :)

This may sound stupid.. but u guys make me feel better :) u may not know it.. but it helped in many ways ^___^ by juz replying.

To those whom i always bugged..
U know who u are :D dun need me to mention names hehe.
Muax!!

My Valentines Weekend...

It was 13th of Feb, Vince told me he won't be free the next day, so i thought we could spend the night (online) in advance. I waited for him to come home, but he had to celebrate his brother's birthday n stuff.. i waited for him the whole night and fell asleep in front of the laptop. :( was kinda sad cuz i never celebrated Valentine's Day before.. never received a Valentine's gift before too.. and now that i hav a boyfriend, it's still not happening. So i decided to spend the weekend with Keshia (my relative..well, my dad's cousin's daughter.. which is considered as my cousin too??) and slept over at her house.

That morning, i took the train to the city, and got lost in the city.. but found my way at the end, and took the tram and FINALLY reached her place..

It was a beautiful day. The weather was so good, we went to the beach. :D
Her 2 neighbours came with us too. The 2 guys cycled to the beach, and we decided to walk.
Then we found that we could actually walk in the middle of the sea!! OMG first time ever!! ^_____^



HEHE..


That's Keshia :D

We had FUN!

The sea.... so beautiful.

Sun-tan! She asked me to wear her bikini.. ya i put it on, but i never took off wats outside HAHA.. XD

Birdie~~

We sun-tanned a while and then went swimming.

Then we went back and she cooked burger for us, OMG SO YUMMY!!

Never had such yummy burger, i didnt just make that up.. its true ^____^

She was surprised too hehe. Man, i gotta learn how to cook frm her. She's good.

Then we spent the night watching movies n stuff, then her ex came by and joined us..

He's trying to patch up with her, aww i really wish them the best.. hope things go well with them.

The next morning, Keshia went jogging and i stayed at home cuz i didnt feel well.

She came home after that and we both went for a movie. *He's just not that interested* thats the movie title. hahaha. It was nice :D

Then Aunt Mandi (Keshia's mom) came and picked us up and went to buy some groceries,

then went home n Keshia cooked dinner, and made dips n stuff, n packed them into a basket,

and we went for a picnic by the beach!! ^____^ omg sunset was sooo beautiful!

Aunt Mandi and Keshia

Keshia

Sunset by the beach :)

We went home after that and had a good sleep.

And that sums up my weekend, and i went home the next morning.

It was fun although it wasnt how i imagined my Valentine's Day would be.

But I enjoyed it :)

dear readers..

i just changed the font colors and size, if it's hard for u to read or if it hurts ur eyes, pls let me know ok? i'll change back to original colors. :D i almost went blind changing the colors. >_<

McD McD McD...

haihz.. internet at home so slow (thanks to me :P Hehe).. i cant upload pics, thats y im here sitting at McD trying to upload some pics to my blog. but my stupid laptop is running out of batt!! I'll try to upload some pics up on wat i did during the valentines weekend.. :D no romance, but i still had fun. hehe. Till then!! Going off now!

McD McD...

It's saturday today and i'm sitting at McD near my house, trying to refresh myself wat i did last weekend, cuz seems like it's been more than 1 week since i updated my blog.

it was Orientation week last week. I was SOOOOO nervous that day!!
I walked to the campus that morning, then i realized, OMG orientation is at the other campus 10 minutes down the street!! so i rushed there.. and i was a little late.. :P haha, ya juz a little hehe.
I went into the auditorium and was sitting at the back, then i looked down the room, OMG..all blonde and brunette, >_< im the only asian??
I found a couple of asians in the room but..they'r permanent residents in Australia.. so i guess they'r Australians? which make me the only International Student in the whole music course :D COOOOOL.... NOT!

I managed to make a couple of friends on this very 'fun' day :D
This girl called Charlotte who is 2 yrs younger than me.. looks punkish.. or emo, i duno. with black hair. Her dad's got a band, and i think they'r quite famous...cuz she didnt really want ppl to know. This other guy called Richard.. LOL. his hair so messy lol.. never make eye contact with ppl. super shy.

Other girls in my course.. they dun look friendly, haha. And then only i realized.. western ppl look down on asians. Unless if your english is really really good *:D* haha..
Days passed.. and i've made quite a few friends, :) hehe. Getting used to this place, and school.
And the people here. And i already figured out who to hang out with and who not to mess with.
Muahahhaa.. *i feel smart* LOL :P

My course is fun. REALLY!! i really enjoy myself in school. its just so cool. All of the ppl are all music educated. And i'm now in a band already!! im the vocalist in the band hehehhee so cool ^___^ but we need to perform every single week. a bit scary but i'll get used to it i think.
I hav a feeling these 3 years will be GREAT! a lot to learn hehe.

VIVI FIGHTING!!

:P

hehehe..so sorry, it's been a few days since i updated my blog. i've been so damn lazy these days.. :( been sitting home, until my butt hurts..
my everyday routine :
wake up in the morning
skip breakfast
skip lunch
probably eat some biscuits if im hungry (i dun feel hungry here, and thats weird)
then stay in bed surfing n chatting using laptop
then prepare to go out for dinner
hang out in the playground and sing softly with my ipod
then head back to my room again.

yup. thats basically my everyday routine.
i keep telling myself its gona be better next week onwards, :D my course is starting and im so excited!!!

3rd day

It's been 3 days since i hid myself in the room. It was boring the hell outa me. I couldnt stand it anymore, so i walked down the street, took the train, and headed to the city.

I decided to meet up with a friend. He's a singaporean. Studying in Melbourne Uni, 2 years older than me. We met up, and i played with his dog!! so cute!!

I spent some time with him then he had to do some errands, n so i was off for a walk alone.

:D its nice to walk alone in the city, not knowing where you'r heading, u just walk walk and walk, till u are tired, then u just sit down n watch people pass. Here, u can see all sorts of people.. its fun. It got me thinking about life. lol.

After that, i came back for dinner, n sat at the playground again.

lol. boring huh? i still have 1 more week to waste~!!

2nd day

I woke up at around 9am, was kinda lazy to get up. It was so hot out there, so i stayed in my room and skipped breakfast. I sat on my bed, and started surfing the net. It was sooo boring. No one frm my msn list was on.. those who were, we never talked.

Then i saw someone frm my skype. Daryl. =_="? huh? since when did this guy appear on my skype list? And i couldnt recall if we've had a conversation before, so i started chatting with him.

LOL. He caught my attention ok, I asked "who are u?" and he was like "I'm Daryl, I'm ur neighbour!!" i was at first shocked.. n thought to myself, " :O OMG my neighbour? frm here?! its only my second day here!!" then i thought.. oh it couldnt be, probably my Malaysian neighbour.. but i seriously had no clue who Daryl was. Then he was like "r u Vivian frm Melbourne Uni?" hahaha he got the wrong girl :D but then we started chatting, it was nothing actually, just like a usual chat, then i thought, cool :D!! i got a friend in Melbourne!!!

In the evening, i went to the supermarket to buy some stuff, and took my dinner, and on my way home, i found a small playground. :D It was nice in the evening, so i sat on the bench at the playground, and watched ppl walk by, and kids swinging on swings. I started taking pictures.










so lonely..lol. i was listening to my ipod, and i wanted to cry.
i held back my tears, and walked home.
I was so homesick that night, i cried like shit :P
Then Felix called frm Hongkong, i was like OMG r u serious.. T-T
thats very nice of him. :)
He's my friend's friend, he came to penang to visit my fren n thats how we met,
poor guy wants to chase my friend but she's not into him.
He asked "r u sick? u dont sound well."
And i said "yeah, i caught a cold.." (i was crying!! but i aint telling u that!!)
then he said "wow, its 46 degrees out there and u caught a cold???"
And i was like.. "uhh, yeahh..." :P sweat..

1st day of a new start

I woke up in the morning n thought, "i ain't gonna cry today. i'm a tough girl!"


Mom and Dad drove me to where im gona live, we found this shared house through the newspaper. It's a very big house, with a small little garden at the back of the house, i have a big room to myself.


It's a big room with a single bed, a desk, and a closet. Pretty empty, but that's all i need.

We went out for lunch with Aunt Mandi, then we came back and they dropped me, n left me here with my landlord n landlady.. and they went to catch their plane bak to Malaysia.

Mom hugged me and cried, i promised her before that i won't cry, yup, i held back my tears.

They left, and im all alone with the landlord n landlady.

They spent like half an hour telling me the house rules.. omg. >_<

The weirdest married couple ever.

i kept my mouth closed, and smiled and said "ohh, ok :) no problem.." and inside i was like "WTH im sooo moving out!"

I spent the rest of the evening outside, took dinner and bought a pair of slippers to wear inside the house. Yup, thats pretty much my first day. I slept well that night.

Journey to the west.. uhh, more like south..

Yup, that was the day i was heading to Australia.. for my audition.

friends called up to say goodbye, and we'r off to KL.

Dad and Mom came with me. We transitted at KL, then fled to Perth, hey i made a few very cool friends on the plane :D very nice people hehe. We then waited frm 3 plus to 10 plus in the airport.. thats just so stupid.. :P lol but it was really an experience haha.

Dad was kinda frustrated cuz we couldnt check in the luggages cuz it was way too early, so we were stuck in the domestic airport waiting for our domestic flight to Melbourne.



So we waited.. waited... and waited..

Then we flew to Melbourne, and rented a car, and checked into a motel.


You should see their map. its like yellow pages THAT THICK.



Dad drove here and there, and we checked into the motel. It's very comfy.







We stayed for a few days, looked for a house for me, drove here and there.. it was quite an experience.. but man, people here sleep so early... kinda boring. :P