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Hey guys, it's been a while since i updated my blog, hehe, sorrie~!! I'm back again :D
Im spending my holiday with friends and family and im enjoying every moment of it ^__^
it's been almost a month since i came back. I'll be here til Feb :D so happy!!!
currently busy with year end camps, one is organized by my choir, a music camp. The other one's organized by my buddhist society i used to attend, so it's a buddhist camp.

:D !!! Love spending time with loved ones. ^___^ hope u guys are doing great. The weather is really hot, drink more water!!!

My band assessment

Remember the band i kept telling you guys about? The class we had to perform in every Tuesday? Yup, we had an assessment on Tuesday, we had to sing a wedding set, so we all had to choose songs to sing for 35minutes, and we had to wear proper attire. I'll upload a few pics and a few videos for u guys to watch :P my friend helped me videotape it , hahhaha.

This is when we were practicing. I took quietly from the back of the room :P







There are 8 guys 1 girl in my band. Without me telling, im sure u know who that girl is. Ehem..
I'm singing backing vocals (backup singer)for most of the songs, but most of the time i dono wat i was doing, when the main singer was singing i was day dreaming XD This is our classroom, a bit messy please bare with it haha. Pay attention with the saxophone player, HAHA he's hilarious! My friend only recorded some parts of it, the BETTER ones are at the middle til the end of the assessment, but she didnt record, haih.. anyway, hope u enjoy.

My first vegetarian curry

Tell u a secret, i actually LOVE shopping for groceries :P HAHAA. It makes me think of what to cook for the following days, and if i have free time, i love trying new dishes that i never cooked before. So today.. i passed by an asian grocery store, and saw packets of.. MALAYSIAN CURRY.

So i bought back a packet of vegetarian curry (cuz i feel like i'v been cooking a lot of chicken lately), and bought a quarter of a HUGE cabbage, and some long beans, and some ermm.. wat u call it, taupok. LOL. (pls excuse my dictionary, cannot find the right word to translate), and went home to cook. Oh wait! How can we forget coconut milk while cooking curry?! And yes i bought coconut milk too. And then walked home.

Cut the vege n long beans, and started cooking. Had NEVER cooked curry before in my life, but i feel that it's still a pass for a first-timer. What ya think? :D





HAHA.. well to be honest i think i added a bit too much coconut milk >_<
Oh well, it still got the curry-ish taste, so its ok HAHA.
Succeed!!!

一人一半

Currently in love with this song. Sorry for those who can't read chinese :P
I've uploaded the song into my Mr Teddy. Enjoy!

一人一半，感情不散
一人一素故，感情才会久
时光累积，安静的泪滴
一心去追，爱那么可贵

这样的人， 这样地等
无非是 等个回应眼神
为爱反滚， 不及伤痕
甘心为你一身都浮沉

这样的人， 别笑我蠢
傻傻的 心痛也不觉疼
就算天冷， 就算难残忍
等你想起这没用的人

一人一半， 感情不散
已经找到爱， 为何要离开
　
已经找到爱， 为何想离开。

Winery

I went to winery last saturday :D but my friend's not free to send me those pics til the coming weekend.. ARGHH!! Will update my winery post this weekend. TIL THEN!! xoxo.

Kakak

My grandma's house used to hav a maid.. forgot her name.. but she's really a good maid. I suddenly thought of her. She used to be very hardworking, and very nice, but she's gone back to her own country now. My grandma wanted to extend the contract.. but then she had to go back to her children.

The previous family she worked with treated her very badly. They made her eat stale rice. And made her work a lot, and if she's slow or watever, they wouldn't let her eat. It is really terrible to see how our own kind treat others like animals (u cant treat animals like this too) just because they come from different class in the society.
They'd scold her and not give her food.

Sometimes we would buy cakes or some food home when we visit my grandma's house, and we would offer her a slice of cake, haha.. a slice of cake would make her soooo happy and brighten her day, because.. she had never had cake before. And while she was eating it, she'd think of her kids, cuz they'd never tasted a cake before too. Sometimes even a small thing could make her really happy, and she'd appreciate what we did for her (although to us.. we'r just showing a bit of caring and sharing) but it meant a lot to her.

It's heartbreaking when she told us abt her background. Her husband left her with 2 kids.
One guy one girl. She left them to her brother (their uncle) and came all the way to Malaysia to work, and would send back the money for them, and sounded like her brother would take those money and stuff.

She had not spoken to her kids for some time.. and she missed them a lot. So my uncle gave her an old phone and a card for her to call home once in a while. Sometimes she would write letters back to her home and they'd reply. And most of the time after she finished reading the letters, she'd tear.

Once she was talking to her daughter and found out that her son left home without telling her, to find a job or something.. he was very young.. like.. 14 or 15.. and he was alone.

Sigh. Thinking abt it, i feel that i should cherish and appreciate more for what i have and wat i own now. Although i havent been really close to her, i kinda miss her..

LUNCH

I was trying to cook myself lunch today.. was excited cuz i bought minced meat.. wanted to make a dish my mom used to always make. Steamed meat with egg.

So i called my mom, asked her for instructions.. then i thought.. "well its pretty easy" and started to make it. The first mistake i did.. i forgot to defrost the meat. =_="
Nevermind. So i left it to defrost. And i started cutting vegetables, n then fried them with garlic.
Then.. i came bak to the meat... and it was still frozen.. so i thought.. Hmm.. mayb the microwave could help. So i threw it into the microwave n defrost it. And it came out.. half cooked, half raw. >_<
And it had a weird smell.

I thought.. nevermind, mayb its just me.. and i chopped them and mixed an egg into it and steamed it. "5 minutes will do" Mom told me. I thought.. ok.. since my plate's too big to fit the wok, so i'll juz use a bowl, and i think it'll take longer than 5 minutes. It looked like this. And I waited..



And waited..
10 minutes passed... and it's still raw.



And I waited..
30 minutes passed and IT"S STILL RAW!!!!




I then give up on steaming.. and i was sooo fed up, and so i dumped the meat into the pan and fried with the vege n rice.. 3 in one.. >_< and it tasted soo weird!!

After 2 hours in the kitchen... i ate half of the fried minced-meat-rice-and-vege , and threw away the rest. It was... Yuck.

My cooking skills... haihz...

Bad luck?? Or its just me?

Last night.. while i was sleeping halfway.. my bed suddenly went "BAMM!" n collapsed. >_< I jumped up and i was like.. O_O n tried to fix my bed. The wood by the sides were screwed, but the screws were loosen now, and no matter how many times I tried... the bed juz won't stay there, and kept falling. Like this...





In the middle of the night... fixing my bed (or at least i was trying to :P ) and then i decided to carry the mattress out n sleep on the floor.. the mattress was THICK n HEAVY!

Please tell me it's not me.. NOR my weight's responsiblity for this.. XP

Inspiration

Do you ever sing when u're taking your shower? Of coz u do :D haha.
I do toooo. I was taking my shower just now.. but i wasn't singing.. and there's an "idea" suddenly started singing in my brain.. OMG is this called inspiration? Cuz i'm into writing songs these days..
My lecturer told me before.. that when inspiration come, you hav to sit down and write it down, or record it.. or else when it goes away, u'll forget.

I was in the bathroom.. taking my shower.. how on earth am i going to sit down and write OR record my idea?? LOL.

He forgot to teach us wat to do when inspirations come when u'r taking shower. :P
Anyway. The song grew stronger and stronger in my head.. and i started to sing out the melody that was in my head.. never had this feeling before.. and *Poooff*, there.. a chorus with melody and lyrics, done. Then i was thinking.. is this one of the songs i've heard before and it's juz stuck in my head?? After thinking hard.. NO its not.. it's a brand new song i've never heard of.

I hurry finish my shower and then grabbed my phone and sang to it, and recorded it down.
Previously, i was writing lyrics of another song.. and then only add in the melody.
My lecturer told us when he had an inspiration abt a song, the lyrics and melody come and flow together at the same time.. and there.. a song. By then, I was thinking hard.. Ha?? How to write like that? I cant write my lyrics and melody at the same time.. die.. i hav to finish writing my lyrics first.. then only the melody will come. But now i know.. :D wat it means by INSPIRATION :D HAHAHA im sooo happy ^__^ i've juz discovered something new hehehe.

:D:D:D:D

I'm having my 1 week mid-term break now, :D hehe feels good being lazy n not doing anything, but i still practice my singing and stuff. And gonna catch up with some subjects too.

Victor came and talked to me a few days ago, :D HEHE he told me he's coming to Melbourne to study~!~!!! Woooo!!! At first when he told me he's going to study, I thought he's gonna stay in KL and study there. Cuz the other friend of mine told me he's going to continue with his studies, and gave me hope (cuz i thought he's coming to Melbourne, then i'll have a hang out buddy) but then he chose to go to the UK.. so i thought.. oh well, i'm going to be alone again. Then Victor came and said he's coming :D YAYE!!! im sooo happy!! ^__^ he said he's gonna drag me out of the house and make me his adventure partner HAHA.
"No more locking yourself in the room thinking of weird things d" he says. haha. I thought its sweet, but hey.. i dun think of weird things :P

I hope my blog can be more interesting. Hmmm.. then i'll hv more ppl reading it.
Anyway, hope u all hav a great week. XOXO.

Song writing

There's this class that i attend, called Songwriting.
Last semester we had to write melody and make a song out, and this semester we have to learn how to write lyrics. SO as usual we have assignment for lyric writing.. and i had the perfect idea of a song.

I called it The Bird and The Fish.
It's abt a bird and a fish falling in love.. but they'll never be together, it's forbidden love, cuz the bird will never be able to swim by the fish, and the fish will never be able to fly beside the bird.
Brilliant?? :P hahaha. We had to submit our first draft, and let the whole class read watever we've done.. and they'd write comments on it.

I've only got my first verse done.. and it was like this. Don't laugh.

Verse 1
A bird is resting on a big tree by a river,
He looks down and sees a fish.
A fish is swimming in a river by a big tree,
She looks up and sees a bird.

-The End-

HAHAHA erm.. it was a last minute thing.. cuz i forgot we had to hand in our first draft that day, so.. friends will comment on watever you have.

i was so scared haha cuz i only had this much done.. then after 1 hour of commenting each other's work.. i got my paper back. Then i read my own work again, n i felt like it was kindergarten work.. ARGH i feel so stupid n childish hAHA.. but surprisingly the comments i got back were good..?? They said it's very special, and imagery. And very memorable. Hmmmmm... and one said I used animals instead of human, which is very interesting, he likes it a lot. And a whole bunch of stuff like that.

Oh well. LOL. I was stuck with ideas after i finished my first verse. Couldn't continue anymore.

vacation

These days, my cousins and I are planning to go for a vacation when i go back to Malaysia for holiday. Since they all are already working, they can afford themselves, and we all came to a decision, Taiwan.

So, the 5 of us will be backpacking and self touring in Taiwan. We found cheap flight ticket, and also a very comfortable hostel to stay. Everyone was soo excited ^__^ but i was worried cuz i had to ask my mom. So i asked my mom, and her responce wasnt good. Which i think is normal, cuz i'm already spending so much money on my studies, and now travelling?!! So i talked to my cousins again.. we had 'conferences' every night :P ahhahaa, and we would report to each other on the famous attractions and cheaper flight tickets and hostels and everything. I told them to go without me, I said since this time everyone's so into it, they should just go.

Hehehe.. i love my cousins.. they said they're not going anywhere without me. :D

But i told them i can't afford myself cuz i can't even find a job here, i've been looking but i couldnt find any. And then my internet's connection was down or something, i couldnt go online for the rest of the night, then one of them SMS me to call her. They changed their plan.

So now, instead of going to Taiwan, we're going to Melaka XD

I feel so bad though.. cuz we've been talking about going overseas and travel together, this is like our DREAM!! To be able to go together. Then i asked her, 'why don't we go Singapore?" Dont know why, for some reason, they wana go Melaka. A'Famosa i think.. dunno..
They say Singapore's not worth it. XD but.. i think it is.. cuz, i wana go shop there!!! Bugis Street!!!

Anyway. So now the plan is.. Melaka.

cupcake

i feel like eating cupcake.. :(
i ate a cupcake that day, it was so pretty and so yummy :) hehehe it made my day!! ^___^
and i'm craving for it now~~~!!! ARgh~~!

Friends

Sometimes i feel that i dont have many friends.

No, i mean, i DO hav A LOT of friends on MSN, i hav a list of nearly 400 people!!
These are friends from my ex schools, since i've studied many schools before.
And some are net friends. (Some are nice, but i dont know why i didnt delete the shit ones)
And a few are relatives.
And a few are friends i made on the plane. ^___^

But there are days when my MSN was totaly quiet. No one came to talk, no one replied, especially during the times when i need someone, and no one's there for me.

You must be thinking.. dont I have real friends other than MSN?
Yeah i do. I miss those friends in Malaysia :( We used to hang out every weekend, and even during weekdays, we'd meet up at night for coffee or something.
But friends here.. dont make me feel like i'm wanted.
Maybe it's cuz i dont really talk much with them. I dont know what to say sometimes so i rather keep my mouth shut. They keep saying, "Hey let's hang out someday :D it'll be fun!!"

Umm yeah.. they keep saying this every now and then, since beginning of the year, but we never really hung out. No one asked me. And a couple of times they canceled the 'hang out', so.. yeah.
My closer friends in Aus are both Malaysians, but 1 got boyfriend already, and 'dumped' me. :P
One got husband and she's always busy on weekends. So i'm always alone.

The one who's married is my closest friend now.. but lately, i found that, she only cares about her stuff, and we never really talked abt me when we'r together. Always asked me to go to her house when her husband's busy and cant accompany her. And when her husband's back, I'm put aside. I feel like im a 'replacement'. :S And I'm always listening to her complaining about this and that. Sometimes i just feel sick of listening. Mayb i kept telling people "sorry.. i'm not good with advice.. but i'm a good listener.." And so ppl just kept making me listen to them.

Like the other day.. i called her to ask about the time changes for one of the classes. She didn't pick up the phone, and i sms her, she didnt reply too. So i called someone else, and found out that class is starting soon, so i rushed to attend the class, and i was a bit late, after class, I told her "I tried to call you but you didnt pick up" , and she said "yeahh.. i was in the lab, couldnt answer, sorry" and she didnt even ask why i called. And straight away continue with her stuff, " you know.. just now in the lab..bla bla bla.." and i was like.. =_=

Thinking back.. seems like she's almost always talking about her stuff.. hmm.
Wats my point of writing this post anyway? I complain too much. LOL. I'm pretty sure you guys are sick of my complains too right? I was just testing you all. Cuz seems like no one reads my blog anymore :P haha. write something on my chat box!!

Phew...

I came home after class today.. and no one was at home. So after closing the door i went straight into my room, and because i was soooo tired.. I took a nap. And after a couple of hours, i woke up, n was hungry cuz i havent eaten yet, so I went downstairs , and found that the door was opened!!! I looked around.. it wasnt my landlady, couldn't be my housemate, I was so scared I thought someone broke into the house!!! T__T

But after checking, no one was at home, so i shut the door and went to cook.
Maybe it was me, I didn't shut the door properly.. but man.. it sure was scary.

differences in culture

I'm here sitting in McD writing my blog, just like what i used to do.
I havent been to McD for quite a while now.. and just as i walked into the place, i heard Hokkien :P and i saw 4 old folks speaking in Hokkien, forgot what they talked about but it reminds me of my mom. I've probably said this hundreds of times in this blog but I MISS MY MOM!!!! :(

So i bought my brunch and looked for a place to sit down, and saw the table in front of me, and i started watching them haha.

It was an Asian mother and her little son. The son spoke perfect English, but I couldn't really understand what the Mom was saying the whole time. The way the mother educated the kid was 'westernized' (if there's such word) even tho she's an Asian. She was asking her son to finish up the burger. It took her like 10 minutes, trying to make him eat. He just sat there playing with his toys, and the mother juz sat there staring at him holding the burger in her hands. For almost 10 minutes.. and she kept saying "eat it, try to finish as much as you can" and other stuff which I couldn't understand. She said "finish them up and i'll get you chips" and she was so soft to the kid and the kid just didnt really care.. was playing with toys the whole time. She kept calling his name and he juz ignored her hahaha. But at last he ate it.

LOL it sure is hard feeding a kid here.

On the other table, I saw a pair of Asian mother and son. They're from China, and they spoke perfect Chinese. The son was eating by himself, enjoying the food, but he took out the vegetables in the burger, the mother said "eat it!" (as u know chinese speak loudly and so i put "!") and the son showed his unhappy face, and the mother said it again "put them right back in and eat them!", the son didn't dare to complain but showed his annoyed face, and did what his mom told him to.

Seee~ such difference in Asian and Western culture hahaha.

It reminds me of the books that i like to read, they are novels about Chinese and Western cultures, how the elder generations want better education for their kids and so they immigrate to a western country and now that their kids speak perfect English, there's like a gap in between parents and kids cuz the kids dont understand their own culture and root anymore.

Sorry it's just books that i love to reaad hahahha. These novels are by Amy Tan. Got addicted to her since high school . We had to read a novel called Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan and had to analyze the novel and talk about the novel and how well you understand it. Cuz I was studying in International school that time, a lot of westerners studying there, and they just didnt really get the story like we asians did. ^__^v And i got addicted to her ever since, hehe.


-viv-

Back and refreshed

sorry guys, hahahha it's been SOOO damn long since i last wrote something :P hehe.
just a brieft update on wat i've been up to.

I had my holiday like almost 2 months ago.. and I went back to Malaysia,
spent almost 6 weeks there catching up with friends and family.
Celebrated my 21st birthday in advance and i had so much fun :D
Now i'm back to Australia and my batteries are fully charged.

wana view pics of my birthday celebration.. go check them out on facebook hehe,
i'm so lazy to put them up XD

i will update again. soon. HAHA. so, yeah. til then :P

XD

hehe.. remember how I told you guys we need to perform every Tuesday in class in front of classmates? Yea this week we did songs about Australia. "I Still Call Australia Home" and 2 other songs.. :P
the first 2 songs were GOOODD! the band played it sentimentally.. so its slow n stuff.. it was beautiful, but then.. the third song OMG. I screwed it up :P It was perfect during practice, but then i got on stage n i blanked out on the third song :P

I sang through the middle of the song, then there's a bit where guitar comes in and play a bit of solo, then i continue n sing.. but i opened my mouth, n i forgot the melody! My head was blanked! I was soo lost..looked at the lyrics n notes n tried to figure out the melody but my brain stopped functioning.. all of my bandmates where playing the same thing over n over again waiting for me to come in hahhaa.. n everyone was staring at me!

My guitarist was standing behind me.. and he poked me frm behind n said "its ur turn!" OF COZ I KNOW ITS MY TURN!! I turned to him n said, " shit, I forgot the melody!! help!" and he sang me the melody but was so out of tune i didnt know wat he was singing :P i was so panic haha. We didnt stop though.. thank goodness the rest of the classmates( audiences) all tried to help out, n they sang with me.. LOL. Hilarious. I finally got the melody n sang the rest of the song.

After that, my pianist told me, "I played my part and I was waiting for you to come in but you were quiet so i looked to u, and all i saw was Ashley (the guitarist) poking at u slow motion and ask u to sing" LOL O_O thats funny hehe. I'll never ever do that again!! So embarrassing.

My formal performance

I sang for my performance last week, Love Song, with my band.
We did pretty well, a lot of people loved it!
Im so glad!!
A lot of ppl came to me telling me how good I sounded and how they enjoyed the song.
1 guy even said I sounded better than the original, uhh.. that's a little too over :P hahaha.
But i'm glad ppl liked it, I was looking at my teacher the whole time when i sang, THANK GOODNESS he was enjoying the song, i hope i get good grades for it!!
I got so excited n everything.. then only i found that i forgot to bring camera to record it down.. =_=
nevermind. i've got another recital coming up this june, i'll definitely record it down!!
i can feel the pressure coming d.. in fact, a lot of pressure coming.. assignments, exams, and recitals!! need to organize my time d.

a video to share..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wCNxkNXakYE&feature=channel

this song.. i love it. These 2 boys are from the All-American Boys Choir, they're pretty famous, and i remmeber going to their concert when they came to Penang. This song is beautiful.
Reminded me of my mom, i miss her!! :(

ma mistake..

Deeeep apology to Victor :P hahaha, he said he didnt introduce me the song Cry, he doesnt even listen to Kelly Clarkson.. must be someone else. hahaa.





O_O who was it then???

just some quotes

I had been reading a girl's blog, her blog is really one of a kind.
She doesnt write abt her personal stuff, but she put up meaningful quotes and meaningful and beautiful pictures and some songs. I LOVE HER BLOG!

this is her link. http://kari-shma.tumblr.com/

these are some quotes frm her blog that i'd like to share, :D hehe.

“Time is a circus, always packing up and moving away.”

“if you looked inside a girl…you would see how much she really cries, you would find so many secrets and lots of lies but what you’ll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong.”

“Saying nothing…sometimes says the most.”

ENJOY!!

i have a hot body..

LOL

yes, i actually said this to my landlady. >_< without thinking hhahaa.
i was in my night-gown-pajamas the other day, n since it was a knee-length pajamas, i didnt wear long pants underneath it, cuz it wasnt that cold that night.
and i went to the kitchen to cook, and my landlady was there, and she was shock after she saw me, cuz she covered herself frm head to toe.
She asked, "Vivian, aren't you cold at all??" I said, "ummm, nope."
and she asked, "How come??"
I thought about it, and said, "I probably have a hot body..thats why."

.... (and there was a moment of silence)

then i said, " Ohh, i meant, i have a very heaty body, hahaha"
and she laughed.
Man.. this is wat happens when u need to translate chinese to english in ur head and forget to double check for mistakes. LOL...
U should have seen her face, it was hilarious! LOL..

I have a hot body ;)

Cry - Kelly Clarkson

Do u guys remember when i needed to choose a song for my performance? Well yeah, at the end I chose Love Song by Sara Berellies. Victor introduced me a song called Cry by Kelly Clarkson that time.. he said this song made him cry. And that time I downloaded the song, and listened to it, it didn't hit me.. I was like.. Hmm this song isn't as sad as i thought.. I was wrong.

Maybe that time i didn't really concentrate on the song..
But last night, I was bored, and so i played and listened to all of the music from my computer.
And i played games on msn with C'Kay, we were having so much fun.. and then this song played..
and it hit me. HIT ME HARD! i suddenly felt so emotional.. I was like.. omg this song is so sad, and repeated it over and over again, to listen to the lyrics clearer.. and so.. i grew more and more emotional.

It's amazing how a song can change your mood so suddenly.. and so quickly. (mayb it's juz me, i dono.) But yeah, I suddenly became sad.. and cried while playing game. SO ANNOYING! I really dono wats wrong with me, can cry so easily. C'Kay's right.. i'm such a 'ham pao'. Really need to change already.

But yeah, the song is soo stuck in my head, i cried even harder thinking of my mom and dad (although its a break up song) and my family. I lost control.. n went really gloomy. But then thanks to C'Kay again, I was ok after that.

Haihs.. falling sick already, i think its becoz i dehydrate d.. didnt drink enough water. *cough cough*

My landlady

She hates me!! I can see it frm her eyes, she's gonna kill me someday!!
Thanks to my friend.. T__T now my landlady hates me!
My landlady is a Korean who lives in this house too.
She's an over 30 yr old Korean lady and she's still thinking if she should study Master n stuff..
She's a very nice lady, but u know one thing..(im not being mean or anything) but i've come to understand from wat i saw from the Korean dramas.. that Koreans can get really pissed and show you their "cheh" face.. u know wat i mean? No?? Dont mind that. >_<

So yeah, we were fine until that very night... My friend asked me out for dinner with her boyfriend. So I agreed and went with them.
We went for bubble tea (*so nice!*) and chatted a bit, and they dropped me home at around 11 plus.. She hopped down the car.. and i figured she wanna come to my house, but my housemate and landlady were already asleep, and i didn't wanna make any noise to wake them, and it'll be awkward cuz my landlady.. she doesn't have a room to herself. She sleeps in the living room!! And so i said, "Umm.. your boyfriend seems pretty tired, and it's pretty late now, u guys better go home :) thanks for dropping me, bye~!" No reaction frm her.. =_=" and the bf saw his gf got off the car.. now he shuts the car engine and locks the door!! I was speechless.
Then, we walked til my house door and i said again, "Umm, u guys sure u wanna come in? It's not that convenient cuz people in the house are asleep.. and its pretty late."
The girl said, "Ha? Ohh.." but took off her shoes!! >_< ok i don't blame her. Maybe its my fault.. cuz she's not very bright, she's famous for her dumb.. uh, i mean, blurness. I should have just said, "GO HOME U CANT COME IN!!" (heck, wats with the guy for not being able to read my mind n drive his precious home?!) And the guy took off his shoes, too. =_="
I acted like a theif unlocking the door n walked into the living room.. there.. followed 2 unwelcomed guests.
Well, i guess if they insist, i'll just let them come in, and so i turned around n said "SHHHHH" to make sure they dun make any sound. And sleeping on the mattress in the living room.. my sleeping landlady~
We went upstairs to my room. I had NO idea why they just wont go home and let me rest T__T instead, the girl asked me to turn on the laptop n put on some Jay Chou music. We saw a friend online.. and webcammed with her for a few minutes.. and my friend's phone rang.
I swear that was the loudest ringtone ever. Is she deaf or something to need to volume her ringtone so loud? She talked on the phone.. never considered about those who were asleep. I stared at her and said, "shhhh!"... that was probably a not-so-affective stare.. she kept on talking loud.

At last! They'r going home. I sent them to the door downstairs.. and found my landlady sleeping.. on the sofa this time. SHIT! She saw them! She must have heard all the noise and woke up. I hurried upstairs n closed the door.

The next day, I was cooking in the kitchen. My landlady stared at me.. and.. she said, "Vivian, can I ask you a favor?" O__O IM SCREWED.
She said, "Can you not bring any male friend back at night when we're all asleep? You know i'm sleeping in the living room and it's awkward for a guy to.. bla bla bla bla"
I tried to defence myself.. but this was when she showed me the typical Korean way of getting pissed - the "cheh" face. >_< I shut up and apologized.. "im sorry, i wont do it again"
T__T i didnt wanna die, the knifes here are sharp.

I sms my friend after that. I was kinda pissed..
She didn't reply. Saw her online, but she didnt mention it til today. =_=
I guess it's my fault.. for not being able to reject firmly.. i need to work on that!!

friday nite

LOL i took a hot bath just now.. cuz i had running nose, its pretty cold here!
I got into my pajamas n realized.. Geez.. i really have a special taste and the coolest fashion trend ever!!
I'm wearing a light green Winnie the Pooh pajamas (mom bought.. not me) more like night gown.. (those long big T-shirt looking pajamas that goes down to above ur knees) and wearing pink fluffy socks with white stripes.. =_= i was looking at myself in the mirror.. THANK GOODNESS i only wear this at home.

but hey.. i look cool ;) HAHA..

*ah chooo!!*

T__T

ASSIGNMENT ASSIGNMENT and ASSIGNMENT!!!

T__T

i dono how to write essays n i hate writing essays.

especially putting citations and referencings.. :(

i dono how~~~ haihz.

back and alive..

Sorry guys for not been able to update my blog for such a long time.
I'm back now.. and alive.
I mean, i've been here but now im back to writing blog again.
Something happened in my family and it struck me real bad..
I kept thinking these days.. about life.. that it is unfair, and nothing is perfect and all..
i dont blame life, in fact i found myself very lucky enough to have wat i own now.
I dono wat im typing here.. cuz im sitting here eyes filled with tears.. again.
I hate myself for being so weak. I acted strong in front of my family since im the eldest and i have the responsibility to protect my brother n my mom. I acted like nothing happened.. and smiled when i talked to mom. Cuz i didnt wana make her feel sad again and i dont want her to worry abt me. But im sitting here crying again.
I hate lonely nights. I hate the feeling that no one's here when i needed a shoulder. I hate myself for acting strong when i'm actually not, and telling my friends im fine and in fact im crying while typing. Im juz so messed up. My friend's right. He said I'm just acting tough, im in fact a crybaby.
I miss my family, I miss home, I miss mom, I miss my brother, and my dad.. I miss the old us. Before we went overseas. Before we went to Shanghai. We were happier then.

well i guess life is hard but things will get better.. i keep telling myself that.
I'll be fine, cuz i know im not fine now and i cant be fine now.
Yeah.. I'll be fine.

Confessions of a Broken Heart lyrics

Confessions of a Broken Heart

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter

I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better

And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders

A family in crisis that only grows older

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am broken but I am hoping

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I am crying, a part of me is dying and

These are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

And I wear all your old clothes, your polo sweater

I dream of another you

The one who would never (never)

Leave me alone to pick up the pieces

A daddy to hold me, that's what I needed

So why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go

Why'd you have to go!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don't know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth, did you ever love me

Cause these are, these are

The confessions of a broken heart

I love you, I love you

I love you

I....!!!!!

I love you!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father

I don't know you, but I still want to

Daughter to father, daughter to father

Tell me the truth...

Did you ever love me!!!?

Did you ever love me?

These are.....

The confessions...of a broken heart

Ohhh....yeah

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..

performance

As you know, i have to perform every single week, but with a different theme.
SO, this week, I have to perform Christmas Medley with my band, and we hav to play 4 songs.
So they told me wat r those songs, n im happy cuz i LOVE christmas songs :D
1. Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
2. Santa Clauss Is Coming To Town
3. Jingle Bell Rock
4. Santa Baby

I LOVE those songs, and i know them well, except the last song.
I said ok, no comments, and i smiled happily :D
then i went to the library to download the "santa baby" song, cuz i dono the song,
wana learn it up, n i was so excited :D
Then, i found out, Damn, this is a sexy song... T___T i'll have to sound sexy n stuff, OMG!
They evil bunch!! no wonder they like this song!

LOL.. im so dead.

My late thursday

I went home after school yesterday, and i tried to cook dinner for myself, for the first time since i came here. Well i cooked instant noodles before but i dont take it as proper meals hahhaa..

So, didnt know wat to cook.. (cuz i didnt buy anything LOL) so i prepared myself burger n fried eggs. I chopped some cucumber, and took out 2 eggs, took out a bun, and some smoked chicken slices, and made myself a burger!! hehe.. u'r probably gonna say.. "wth? she cooked for herself, so wat?!" but man.. this is the first proper meal i made myself since i came here, it's self-made!!

i've been eating out for 2 months straight EVERY SINGLE DAY! imagine that! lol. somemore food here isnt cheap..

So yeah~~ this is the burger i made, and those are fried eggs by the side, u can hardly tell lol.
Dont comment on my cooking skills based on the look of the dish. XD



Later that night a friend frm Sabah.. (or Sarawak? :P ) came to my house n we did assignment together. We spent most of the time talking and laughing and gossiping, n spent so much time 'beautify-ing' our assignments, ppl used 1 hour to finish that assignment, we used...quite a long time. She came at 9 plus, n started discussing at 10, and we did until 4am.. hehe..

Then she figured she should go home n finish hers, cuz i need to sleep, and she left.

It was 4 plus. LOL.. in d morning :D

Wat a night.. :P

sorry guys..

Hey guys.. sorry i havent been online lately, cant really update my blog.
I will take some pics of my room and i'll post it up.. soon :P
I know some ppl go online every morning checking their bookmarks n reading stuff n my blog seems the same everyday.. but i'll update soon!! :D
Will try to get internet.. somehow.. n chat with u guys. Life is boring without u guys :D
Take care ppl!! XOXOXO

-viv-

internet internet internet~~~~

Im in the school library lol, sick of McD..
anyway. Yeah my landlady asked me to get my own connection, cuz they dont use it, and now i'm browsing and looking at broadband n stuff..
and those 64k/64k or watever.. >_< i dun understand!!
Called my frens for help, 1 dont know anything, 1 told me this and that but he's too far away cant help me, and the last one never answers my calls. Great. I need it for my assignment.
I wanted to buy prepaid mobile broadband, but its so expensive..
I.. NEED.. INTERNET...!!
I miss my frens.. i cant talk to anyone.. and im getting homesick again :S
haihz. anyway...i'll figure something out. i wont die. I WILL SURVIVE! (ya this is a song im gonna sing for one of my performances)

*yawns* hmmm...

im a survivor!

yup, im in McD again, and i survived thru the night!!!
I was right, u guys really ignored that 'call-me' part.. T___T
Nvm.. i had a boring night, i watched Spirited Away..again.. like.. the 150th time.. >_<
Slept early last night and woke up late today.
My back hurts like shit when i woke up this morning.. :(
I think im getting old.. :P
anyway. im going to the city to do some errands now, see u guys hopefullly.. soon..
bye~

my new place..

Today is a SUPER HOT day, i moved into my new house, everything seemed good until.. i sat down on bed, then only i realized, DAMN, no fan, no air-con. >_<
I saw the air-con 'hole' but i didnt ask my landlady to turn it on.
And then i wanted to use the internet, and asked her if they hav connection, cuz i couldnt see any wireless link, and she said "we dun hav wireless, but im planning to get one soon."
Sooooon?!! >_< How soon is soon?! I CANNOT live without internet! What am i gonna do tonite?! Juz stare at my laptop? How depressing T__T

I'm now in McD, haih....
Tonite gonna be so lonely cuz cant connect with u ppl..
so pls pls pls call me if u're bored lol, i understand its expensive but, i'll really appreaciate ur company! my number +61411344046 hehe.. i know it sounds crazy but call me!! :P
I have a feeling everyone's gonna ignore this part. LOL.

Haihz.. gtg now. i'll take some pics n post them up soon. And i'll come online tomoro morning again, i'll come to McD. AGAIN. Bye for now.

moving in 2 days..

I'm moving soon~~ :) this saturday morning.
And so i'm packing now. Rolled all my clothes like Swiss-roll and put them in the luggage. hehe :P
Packed halfway then suddenly wanted to write it down. I'm addicted to blogging already :( Thats no good. cuz now when i'm free i'll just come here n crap. >_< poor u readers gonna suffer, lol.
Now im sitting on the floor staring at my room, aww im gonna miss this room.
Spent my first 2 months here, i wont forget all the happy and sad moments in here.
U'll probably think "Wth, its just a room." But its not just a room, it's gonna be one of the important bits in my memory. And one day i'll look back and think, "Gee.. when i was in Aus, the first room i lived in...and the landlord..and the landlady..." I wont forget this room. hehe..
hmm.. anyway. gotta go bak n pack.
I WILL MISS U ROOMIE~~ BYE~~

a bunch of everything

Last night a guy added me on msn, n started chatting with me. i hav no idea who is he, i dont know this guy. At first i thought he's one of my schoolmates, but he's not. Then he started chatting with me. He said he's frm my facebook, but i dont recall his name appearing in my list, :P hahaa. Anyway, we chatted n he said he's frm Bangladesh, but went to Aus and now in Malaysia, n i said "really?? cool cuz im a Malaysian and now in Aus"
Then he asked which part of Aus, i told him Melbourne, n he said "ahh.. i miss Melbourne, used to study there." Vice versa, i asked him which part of Malaysia is he in, and he said Penang.
I said "Omg, i was in Penang, and came to Melbourne, and u are frm Melbourne, went to Penang." hahaha we both laughed and its so coincident. He was in Penang for abt 1 month only, and im in Melbourne for 2 months only, thats pretty odd. Anyway. just wanna share this odd incident. XD

I'm so screwed.. hehe. I'm sitting here writing blog, still got tons of homework waiting for me to do. I havent packed yet, moving in 2 days d.. >_< I'm so tired i dont know y.. came home just now slept straight for 3 hours, skipped dinner, hungry also didnt bother, kept sleeping hahaha.

Today im so happy :) i performed with my band in front of the whole course students. Never thought will get so many good feedbacks hehe. 2 of my friends wanted to join in to sing the harmony part for me, but 1 couldnt get her notes, and she was singing the highest part, so i said i'll take hers and i'll sing, then everyone was impressed, even the lecturer smiled :D cuz we harmonized the chorus part ourselves. ^___^
After i performed, i went bak to my seat, a guy just leaned forward n say "U rock Viv, awesome!" and showed me his fist and wanted me to punch back. XD FUNNY.. so not used to their type of 'high-five'. At the end of lesson, quite a few ppl come to me n say "wow u did great, awesome!" Awww.. they made my day!!

I HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK!! bye for now.

hahahaa..

I went to school today, n i was telling my friend about the McDonalds incident.
I was halfway telling her abt this exciting 'give-me-2-dollars-or-im-gonna-kill-u!' scene, and a guy frm my class heard us, and he asked, "wait, is she frm America??"
Then i was confused, n said, "umm.. no? She's an Australian, y did u think she's frm America?"
And he said.. "well wats with the American accent?"
..... then i said.."oh, my bad.. its just probably my accent.. LOL" my fren laughed.
It's not the first time ppl telling me i got American accent.. and its just weird cuz i dont see any difference between American and Australian accent, they seem similar to me.

On my enrolment day, this admin asked me, "Where are u frm? You have a beautiful accent, i love hearing u when u speak." And i said "oh really? im frm Malaysia :D "
And she said "Really? But u got an American accent.." XD hehe

On my second day of school, 1 guy asked if i'm frm America XD HAHAHA.. i said.. "no? im frm Malaysia.." and he said "oh thats weird, u got an American accent.."
I wonder where i picked up my American accent?
Utahloy International School? or Uplands International School? hmm..
I can speak but my vocabulary stinks!! I saw Victor's blog, OMG his blog is filled with hard vocabs, i had to look up words while reading his blog.. im just gonna ask him to teach me hahahha.

I went around checking ppl's age..cuz some seem older or around same age as me, >< they tricked me with their looks. hahaha. This guy who looks like 21 to me, he's 19. This other guy who looks 20 to me, he's 18.. and that guy who looks 20 to me, he's 27.. i mean, WTH!

I was talking to a couple of my bandmates today, n the guys talked abt the girls they dated and stuff. Then A asked B, "Do u have a lover?" and B replied, "What lover? u mean a girlfriend? or a sex partner?" i was like... o_O but juz kept quiet.
Then i asked them for their age, and one was 19, one was 18, and they asked me back, i said 20, and they both had the same reaction "Really??? Are u really 20? cuz u seem younger than ur age, like..18"
WHOA first time ppl say i look younger than my age HAHAHA..
I remember ppl in Malaysia kept saying i look OLDER than my age :P
Today fly sky high d.. hahaha.
Then they asked where i live, and i told them the place n stuff n said i miss Malaysia, and they both said, "Wait, what, u just came here?" I said, "ya, just 2 months ago." And they said "Omg i thought u were local.. u fooled us Vivian!" HAHA XD damn it i didnt know i was good at faking it, hahaha.

Funny XD !!

my..lips?

it's 2.38 in the morning and im still awake cuz i cant sleep, since i slept so much today :P
i asked a friend to read my blog(cuz i was lazy to type) cuz he was asking wat i did today.
and he saw my pics n i got feedback like this..

ur lips are too cute.
they have nice curves
did anyone tell u u have beautiful lips?
it looks cute on u
ur picture expression is very funny.
u always give same look.
im not saying that u look bad or something. its just cute.

okay.... =_=" i'll think twice now before posting a pic onto my blog..
cuz then everyone'll start looking at my lips n start talking abt them, or they'll start staring at my face n see wat expression i give.. and see if i changed any expression..
LOL well sorry if i dono how to pose.. im not the "kawaii' type of girl..
not my fault :P im not the next American Next Top Model too XD hahaha..
just thought its funny cuz first time hearing someone commenting on my same-expressioned-pics, hahahaha so funny :P i never realized.. hehe.

Sunday..

Today's sunday, planned to go out to the city alone, to have a walk and stuff, but it rained heavily, and my lazy worms all crawled out :P so i just stayed under my blanket all day.
Woke up to take breakfast, then went back to bed n use the laptop.
I was telling Kimmy that i HAVE to go out, cuz i dont wanna die of radiation XD
But at the end i rather die of radiation than get out hahaha.. :P
No one talked to me except Kimmy and Victor, :( then they went off, i just stared at the screen dono wat to do. So i slept.

Ahhh ^__^ sleeping under blanket n hibernate in such cold weather is like the greatest thing ever. LOL. didn't wana get up. Then my stomach called for some food.. i had to get up to eat, if not i'll hav gastric again. >_<><) Anyway. im back home now... im gona juz go bak to bed. LOL. damn it i gotta exercise, or i'll gain weight!! arghh! im already fat i dont wana be polar bear!! always hibernate n eat only!! >_<

Can u give me 2 dollars please..!!

Yup, this is wat a girl asked me today in McDonalds.
I was using my laptop in McD today after school, and i put my handphone on the table so i could see who texted.
Usually at this time, there'll be a lot of school kids hanging around McD cuz its after school.
Let me tell u this.. :P i find them kinda scary hahaha cuz they'r so mature.
Well, they act mature but their brains are probably not XD LOL..
Most of the girls are in makeup. Yup. They put makeup when they go to school.
Long eye lashes, black eye liner, and they like dying their hair black.
I can see why its a trend here, it makes them look emo and cool i guess.
And they all look quite the same, all in uniforms, with the same makeup. Except size la XD..

And so i was sitting there watching youtube n downloading songs, and i saw 3 girls sitting there and this girl with dyed hair (altho its not black but i could see its not natural color) and a piercing on her nose went to ask a guy for 2 dollars. rudely.

That Asian guy walked into McD and she just sat there and shouted across the room "Excuse me, can u give me 2 dollars please!!" I think its probably there were only a few people in the room so she didnt care. That guy was surprised by wat she asked, but ignored her.

Then she walked to me, she said "Excuse me!" i pretended like i didnt hear her cuz i had my ipod on. And she came up to me and stood beside me, "Excuse me!!! Can you giv me 2 dollars please?" i said no. I mean, come on, ur 2 other frens are there, they dun hav 2 dollars?!
And she said "please, im hungry and i need 2 dollars!" and i shooked my head. She wont leave me alone. She stood there n poked 1 finger onto my keyboard. "Come on, it's just 2 dollars, im hungry." I ignored her. And she said "you're rich, see!! u got laptop and handphone! just giv me 2 dollars, or i'll touch ur laptop." And started tapping on my keyboard. "I said "Go away, go get someone else, im poor i dont hav 2 dollars. go ask someone else, go ask those guys over there" LOL it was kinda funny. Then she said "Giv me 2 dollars!!" I said NO and kept ignoring her. and she said "Im gona kill u!" And i just looked at her. And she did this sound effect "bang bang bang!" =_=" i shooked my head and she walked away. LOL. WTH >_<

She walked to this other guy n asked for 2 dollars and that guy said no and she went bak to her frens. then they left. i mean.. stupid right?! Childish.
I turned bak n continued watching my video, then only i could feel my heart beating. LOL.. i was telling myself "Omg, wat if she really pulled out a gun juz now..i'd be dead already XD" cuz there were a lot of these cases these days. U wont know wat kids nowadays will do. Seriously..

White Horse - Taylor Swift

if u wanna listen to this song, its on my Mr Teddy, its currently one of my fav!!

:)

Say you're sorry

That face of an angel comes out just when you need it to

As I pace back and forth all this time causeI honestly believed in you

Holdin' on, the days drag on

Stupid girl, I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now its too late for you and your white horse

To come around.

Maybe I was naïve,

Got lost in your eyes, i never really had a chance.

My mistake, I didn't know to be in love you had to fight to have the upperhand.

I had so many dreams about you and me.

Happy endings; Now I know.

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.

Now its too late for you and your white horse,

To come around.

And there you are on your knees

Begging for forgiveness, begging for me

Just like I always wanted, but I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess, this aint a fairytale

Im gonna find someone, some day

Who might actually treat me well.

This is a big world, that was a small town

There in my rearview mirror, disappearing now.

And it's too late for you and your white horse,

Now its too late for you and your white horse,

To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh

Try and catch me now

Whoa-Oh

It's too late

To catch me now.

In the library..

I'm sitting here in the school library..
Done for the day but i dun wana go home yet..
kinda sick of staying in my room starring at my laptop. >_< i'll go blind!! T-T I'm falling asleep.. Zzzz... to keep myself awake i've to come up to my blog n post something up. and its only 4.45! 15 more minutes and im out of here. for early dinner.. hah..i'll b hungry tonite, like i always did, cuz i started taking early dinner nowadays.. which is meant to be good for my diet, cuz ppl say if u dun wana grow any fatter, take early dinner, and u shouldnt eat after that. but... IT'S MAKING IT WORSE! i feel hungry at night :( i try not to eat but i get sooo hungry i cant sleep. i'd go downstairs n cook instant noodles n eat.. >_<
but i found a way now haha.. i bought a box of milk :D it tastes so good.
so if im hungry i'll just drink milk ^___^ muahaha.
my stomach dun feel so well these days.. keep getting something like gastric or stuff like dat, dono wats going on inside.

I've an assignment due this friday, its a short essay, 300 w0rds.. BUT I DONO HOW TO DO!
we need to analyze a piece of Beatles song n explain how this piece is inventive..????? n something to do with rhythm.. T-T omg.. I'm sorry mom n dad i hav a feeling i might fail a couple of subjects in this course.. lol.

I'm feeling the pressure frm school already, which is good.. but late.
i'll ask around for things i dont know, juz hope i dont piss my frens off.
and i need to start a study session with them cuz i know NOTHING!

Ok im goin off!! Library closing in 4 minutes. dono y they close so early :(
i'll update my blog again soon..
if i dont.. that means im busy with assignments... or being lazy, as usual :P heheh.

MUAX!

Pet Fever

As I'm sitting here at McD writing my blog,

I started thinking about the past.

All the sweet and sad memories laughing and crying inside my head,
made me look back those old pics i took.

Then those cute fluffy stuff caught my eyes.

Those pets.. Aww i miss those pets..

I miss my pet. And my cousin's pet.

Let's talk abt my cousin's pet.

This cute lil puppy called Nicky.

He LOVES me :D hehehe.

I always play with him when im at their house. hehe. well thats the main point :P

i will let him out frm the cage and run around the house playing with him.

He'd chase me and follow me everywhere i go. hehe.
ISN'T HE CUTE?!!

LOL HE'S JUZ TOOO CUTE TO RESIST!!

Next, MY OWN PET!!

It was given by a special friend, :D

my very first pet ever!

This cute hamster is called Chuen.

It's funny cuz he never bit me, but he bit my brother, LOL.

I still remember the day i had give it away.

I cried like shit.

It was a bit of a drama hahaha but I juz couldnt control myself.

I cried in the car on my way to my brother's friend,

he said he wants it, so ok..i had to giv it to him.

Then i cried in the car and my brother started scolding me and called me crazy,

and we started arguing in the car, until he banged into a car >_<

LOL. but we'r good. :P

I MISS CHUEN!!!

OH CRAP my batt is running low.. i'll go home n write another blog.

TIL THEN!

LOVE THOSE ANIMALS!

Life is unfair..

I was in my Aural class today.

The lecturer was so fun!

She's so funny hehe. And i LOVE her Russian accent, :D

She seperated us into 2 groups for an activity,

and one group was bigger than the other,

then she looked at us and smiled n said,

"Oh nevermind, life is unfair :D"

haha..

then i started thinking..

hmm..

thats true.. life is unfair..

in fact, nothing is fair.. unless if u'r lucky enough to get everything u want..

if not, u just gota stick to it, and learn to accept it.
Cherish what you have, dont complain for what you dont have,

dont compare yourself with those who have what you want,

and look at those who dont have what you have,

you'll live life happier.

^_____^

my work place...

I sat down on the floor, and did some work.
my floor suddenly became my desk. hehe.
sooo messy i didnt even hav the mood to tidy it up.
haihz..
Life is a mess..
I'm a mess.

Broken Pieces..

As usual, i was looking at my MSN list, trying to look for someone to talk to..

and looking at ppl's personal messages.

then i saw my cousin sister's personal message.. it says,

"Its funny how someone can break your heart,

and you still love them with all the broken pieces.."

Then i thought for a moment..

Yup, i agree.

Some people may call it stupid..

but i guess that's love.

It's something u cant control..

If u really love someone,

no matter how bad they hurt u,

u juz cant help but keep loving them,

and end up hurting urself more.

Sometimes.. when u'r so in love with a person,

u can only see that person,

u forget abt urself.

I had forgotten abt myself..

and i have learnt my lesson.

i'd been loving him with those broken pieces,

and now im tired, and i need to wake up,

cuz now i know that i deserve better.

i cant let him hurt me anymore,

he didnt even care abt me..

sometimes the whole love thing is just stupid,

but we always fall for it.

and that hurtful feeling..

cuts ur heart into pieces.

u just need to pick up these pieces n move on..

I guess this is how we'll learn to be smarter,

and thats the only way to learn.

dear readers..again..

hi :D again.

I changed the layout of my post..

Dont know if u've noticed but the words are now in the middle of the post..

so please please give me comments on how it looks,

is it easier to read this way?

or do u prefer it the other way?

no one commented on the colors i changed, so i think the colors are ok ya?

PLZ COMMENT!

THANKS!

-viv-

xoxo

iron-ing

haih.. im trying to iron my clothes.. T-T that stupid iron i dono how to use.

so scary!

its supposed to hav steam coming out frm the hole after boiling with water n salt..

IT LEAKED!! >_<

i was like.. AHHHH!!! n called mom for help :P

LOL. how pathetic. i so stupid!

:/

im sitting here n a lot of things are going on inside my head...

i'm making myself sick.. i skip meals and when i finally eat, i feel like throwing up.
>_< and im feeling kinda down lately cuz i dun get much attention frm him.. in fact, NONE. kinda lonely here.. i started talking to myself. >_< i cried whole night last night.. i hate myself for being so weak. well i guess love is good when its right.. when its not, its hell. i stare at my laptop all the time.. n looked at my msn list. a lot of so called 'friends' are online, but no one talks to me. only those regular 'customers' of mine.. lol, those whom i always bug and annoy are the ones willing to chat with me. and i feel so sorry for them cuz they hav to talk to me again :P every single day. >_<
i'd like to apologize and thank these ppl for always being there for me to cheer me up when i needed someone :)

This may sound stupid.. but u guys make me feel better :) u may not know it.. but it helped in many ways ^___^ by juz replying.

To those whom i always bugged..
U know who u are :D dun need me to mention names hehe.
Muax!!

My Valentines Weekend...

It was 13th of Feb, Vince told me he won't be free the next day, so i thought we could spend the night (online) in advance. I waited for him to come home, but he had to celebrate his brother's birthday n stuff.. i waited for him the whole night and fell asleep in front of the laptop. :( was kinda sad cuz i never celebrated Valentine's Day before.. never received a Valentine's gift before too.. and now that i hav a boyfriend, it's still not happening. So i decided to spend the weekend with Keshia (my relative..well, my dad's cousin's daughter.. which is considered as my cousin too??) and slept over at her house.

That morning, i took the train to the city, and got lost in the city.. but found my way at the end, and took the tram and FINALLY reached her place..

It was a beautiful day. The weather was so good, we went to the beach. :D
Her 2 neighbours came with us too. The 2 guys cycled to the beach, and we decided to walk.
Then we found that we could actually walk in the middle of the sea!! OMG first time ever!! ^_____^



HEHE..


That's Keshia :D

We had FUN!

The sea.... so beautiful.

Sun-tan! She asked me to wear her bikini.. ya i put it on, but i never took off wats outside HAHA.. XD

Birdie~~

We sun-tanned a while and then went swimming.

Then we went back and she cooked burger for us, OMG SO YUMMY!!

Never had such yummy burger, i didnt just make that up.. its true ^____^

She was surprised too hehe. Man, i gotta learn how to cook frm her. She's good.

Then we spent the night watching movies n stuff, then her ex came by and joined us..

He's trying to patch up with her, aww i really wish them the best.. hope things go well with them.

The next morning, Keshia went jogging and i stayed at home cuz i didnt feel well.

She came home after that and we both went for a movie. *He's just not that interested* thats the movie title. hahaha. It was nice :D

Then Aunt Mandi (Keshia's mom) came and picked us up and went to buy some groceries,

then went home n Keshia cooked dinner, and made dips n stuff, n packed them into a basket,

and we went for a picnic by the beach!! ^____^ omg sunset was sooo beautiful!

Aunt Mandi and Keshia

Keshia

Sunset by the beach :)

We went home after that and had a good sleep.

And that sums up my weekend, and i went home the next morning.

It was fun although it wasnt how i imagined my Valentine's Day would be.

But I enjoyed it :)

dear readers..

i just changed the font colors and size, if it's hard for u to read or if it hurts ur eyes, pls let me know ok? i'll change back to original colors. :D i almost went blind changing the colors. >_<

McD McD McD...

haihz.. internet at home so slow (thanks to me :P Hehe).. i cant upload pics, thats y im here sitting at McD trying to upload some pics to my blog. but my stupid laptop is running out of batt!! I'll try to upload some pics up on wat i did during the valentines weekend.. :D no romance, but i still had fun. hehe. Till then!! Going off now!

McD McD...

It's saturday today and i'm sitting at McD near my house, trying to refresh myself wat i did last weekend, cuz seems like it's been more than 1 week since i updated my blog.

it was Orientation week last week. I was SOOOOO nervous that day!!
I walked to the campus that morning, then i realized, OMG orientation is at the other campus 10 minutes down the street!! so i rushed there.. and i was a little late.. :P haha, ya juz a little hehe.
I went into the auditorium and was sitting at the back, then i looked down the room, OMG..all blonde and brunette, >_< im the only asian??
I found a couple of asians in the room but..they'r permanent residents in Australia.. so i guess they'r Australians? which make me the only International Student in the whole music course :D COOOOOL.... NOT!

I managed to make a couple of friends on this very 'fun' day :D
This girl called Charlotte who is 2 yrs younger than me.. looks punkish.. or emo, i duno. with black hair. Her dad's got a band, and i think they'r quite famous...cuz she didnt really want ppl to know. This other guy called Richard.. LOL. his hair so messy lol.. never make eye contact with ppl. super shy.

Other girls in my course.. they dun look friendly, haha. And then only i realized.. western ppl look down on asians. Unless if your english is really really good *:D* haha..
Days passed.. and i've made quite a few friends, :) hehe. Getting used to this place, and school.
And the people here. And i already figured out who to hang out with and who not to mess with.
Muahahhaa.. *i feel smart* LOL :P

My course is fun. REALLY!! i really enjoy myself in school. its just so cool. All of the ppl are all music educated. And i'm now in a band already!! im the vocalist in the band hehehhee so cool ^___^ but we need to perform every single week. a bit scary but i'll get used to it i think.
I hav a feeling these 3 years will be GREAT! a lot to learn hehe.

VIVI FIGHTING!!

:P

hehehe..so sorry, it's been a few days since i updated my blog. i've been so damn lazy these days.. :( been sitting home, until my butt hurts..
my everyday routine :
wake up in the morning
skip breakfast
skip lunch
probably eat some biscuits if im hungry (i dun feel hungry here, and thats weird)
then stay in bed surfing n chatting using laptop
then prepare to go out for dinner
hang out in the playground and sing softly with my ipod
then head back to my room again.

yup. thats basically my everyday routine.
i keep telling myself its gona be better next week onwards, :D my course is starting and im so excited!!!

3rd day

It's been 3 days since i hid myself in the room. It was boring the hell outa me. I couldnt stand it anymore, so i walked down the street, took the train, and headed to the city.

I decided to meet up with a friend. He's a singaporean. Studying in Melbourne Uni, 2 years older than me. We met up, and i played with his dog!! so cute!!

I spent some time with him then he had to do some errands, n so i was off for a walk alone.

:D its nice to walk alone in the city, not knowing where you'r heading, u just walk walk and walk, till u are tired, then u just sit down n watch people pass. Here, u can see all sorts of people.. its fun. It got me thinking about life. lol.

After that, i came back for dinner, n sat at the playground again.

lol. boring huh? i still have 1 more week to waste~!!

2nd day

I woke up at around 9am, was kinda lazy to get up. It was so hot out there, so i stayed in my room and skipped breakfast. I sat on my bed, and started surfing the net. It was sooo boring. No one frm my msn list was on.. those who were, we never talked.

Then i saw someone frm my skype. Daryl. =_="? huh? since when did this guy appear on my skype list? And i couldnt recall if we've had a conversation before, so i started chatting with him.

LOL. He caught my attention ok, I asked "who are u?" and he was like "I'm Daryl, I'm ur neighbour!!" i was at first shocked.. n thought to myself, " :O OMG my neighbour? frm here?! its only my second day here!!" then i thought.. oh it couldnt be, probably my Malaysian neighbour.. but i seriously had no clue who Daryl was. Then he was like "r u Vivian frm Melbourne Uni?" hahaha he got the wrong girl :D but then we started chatting, it was nothing actually, just like a usual chat, then i thought, cool :D!! i got a friend in Melbourne!!!

In the evening, i went to the supermarket to buy some stuff, and took my dinner, and on my way home, i found a small playground. :D It was nice in the evening, so i sat on the bench at the playground, and watched ppl walk by, and kids swinging on swings. I started taking pictures.










so lonely..lol. i was listening to my ipod, and i wanted to cry.
i held back my tears, and walked home.
I was so homesick that night, i cried like shit :P
Then Felix called frm Hongkong, i was like OMG r u serious.. T-T
thats very nice of him. :)
He's my friend's friend, he came to penang to visit my fren n thats how we met,
poor guy wants to chase my friend but she's not into him.
He asked "r u sick? u dont sound well."
And i said "yeah, i caught a cold.." (i was crying!! but i aint telling u that!!)
then he said "wow, its 46 degrees out there and u caught a cold???"
And i was like.. "uhh, yeahh..." :P sweat..

1st day of a new start

I woke up in the morning n thought, "i ain't gonna cry today. i'm a tough girl!"


Mom and Dad drove me to where im gona live, we found this shared house through the newspaper. It's a very big house, with a small little garden at the back of the house, i have a big room to myself.


It's a big room with a single bed, a desk, and a closet. Pretty empty, but that's all i need.

We went out for lunch with Aunt Mandi, then we came back and they dropped me, n left me here with my landlord n landlady.. and they went to catch their plane bak to Malaysia.

Mom hugged me and cried, i promised her before that i won't cry, yup, i held back my tears.

They left, and im all alone with the landlord n landlady.

They spent like half an hour telling me the house rules.. omg. >_<

The weirdest married couple ever.

i kept my mouth closed, and smiled and said "ohh, ok :) no problem.." and inside i was like "WTH im sooo moving out!"

I spent the rest of the evening outside, took dinner and bought a pair of slippers to wear inside the house. Yup, thats pretty much my first day. I slept well that night.