Friends

Sometimes i feel that i dont have many friends.

No, i mean, i DO hav A LOT of friends on MSN, i hav a list of nearly 400 people!!
These are friends from my ex schools, since i've studied many schools before.
And some are net friends. (Some are nice, but i dont know why i didnt delete the shit ones)
And a few are relatives.
And a few are friends i made on the plane. ^___^

But there are days when my MSN was totaly quiet. No one came to talk, no one replied, especially during the times when i need someone, and no one's there for me.

You must be thinking.. dont I have real friends other than MSN?
Yeah i do. I miss those friends in Malaysia :( We used to hang out every weekend, and even during weekdays, we'd meet up at night for coffee or something.
But friends here.. dont make me feel like i'm wanted.
Maybe it's cuz i dont really talk much with them. I dont know what to say sometimes so i rather keep my mouth shut. They keep saying, "Hey let's hang out someday :D it'll be fun!!"

Umm yeah.. they keep saying this every now and then, since beginning of the year, but we never really hung out. No one asked me. And a couple of times they canceled the 'hang out', so.. yeah.
My closer friends in Aus are both Malaysians, but 1 got boyfriend already, and 'dumped' me. :P
One got husband and she's always busy on weekends. So i'm always alone.

The one who's married is my closest friend now.. but lately, i found that, she only cares about her stuff, and we never really talked abt me when we'r together. Always asked me to go to her house when her husband's busy and cant accompany her. And when her husband's back, I'm put aside. I feel like im a 'replacement'. :S And I'm always listening to her complaining about this and that. Sometimes i just feel sick of listening. Mayb i kept telling people "sorry.. i'm not good with advice.. but i'm a good listener.." And so ppl just kept making me listen to them.

Like the other day.. i called her to ask about the time changes for one of the classes. She didn't pick up the phone, and i sms her, she didnt reply too. So i called someone else, and found out that class is starting soon, so i rushed to attend the class, and i was a bit late, after class, I told her "I tried to call you but you didnt pick up" , and she said "yeahh.. i was in the lab, couldnt answer, sorry" and she didnt even ask why i called. And straight away continue with her stuff, " you know.. just now in the lab..bla bla bla.." and i was like.. =_=

Thinking back.. seems like she's almost always talking about her stuff.. hmm.
Wats my point of writing this post anyway? I complain too much. LOL. I'm pretty sure you guys are sick of my complains too right? I was just testing you all. Cuz seems like no one reads my blog anymore :P haha. write something on my chat box!!