Deeeep apology to Victor :P hahaha, he said he didnt introduce me the song Cry, he doesnt even listen to Kelly Clarkson.. must be someone else. hahaa.
O_O who was it then???
Sunday, April 26, 2009
just some quotes
I had been reading a girl's blog, her blog is really one of a kind.
She doesnt write abt her personal stuff, but she put up meaningful quotes and meaningful and beautiful pictures and some songs. I LOVE HER BLOG!
this is her link. http://kari-shma.tumblr.com/
these are some quotes frm her blog that i'd like to share, :D hehe.
“Time is a circus, always packing up and moving away.”
“if you looked inside a girl…you would see how much she really cries, you would find so many secrets and lots of lies but what you’ll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong.”
“Saying nothing…sometimes says the most.”
ENJOY!!
She doesnt write abt her personal stuff, but she put up meaningful quotes and meaningful and beautiful pictures and some songs. I LOVE HER BLOG!
this is her link. http://kari-shma.tumblr.com/
these are some quotes frm her blog that i'd like to share, :D hehe.
“Time is a circus, always packing up and moving away.”
“if you looked inside a girl…you would see how much she really cries, you would find so many secrets and lots of lies but what you’ll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong.”
“Saying nothing…sometimes says the most.”
ENJOY!!
Friday, April 24, 2009
i have a hot body..
LOL
yes, i actually said this to my landlady. >_< without thinking hhahaa.
i was in my night-gown-pajamas the other day, n since it was a knee-length pajamas, i didnt wear long pants underneath it, cuz it wasnt that cold that night.
and i went to the kitchen to cook, and my landlady was there, and she was shock after she saw me, cuz she covered herself frm head to toe.
She asked, "Vivian, aren't you cold at all??" I said, "ummm, nope."
and she asked, "How come??"
I thought about it, and said, "I probably have a hot body..thats why."
.... (and there was a moment of silence)
then i said, " Ohh, i meant, i have a very heaty body, hahaha"
and she laughed.
Man.. this is wat happens when u need to translate chinese to english in ur head and forget to double check for mistakes. LOL...
U should have seen her face, it was hilarious! LOL..
I have a hot body ;)
yes, i actually said this to my landlady. >_< without thinking hhahaa.
i was in my night-gown-pajamas the other day, n since it was a knee-length pajamas, i didnt wear long pants underneath it, cuz it wasnt that cold that night.
and i went to the kitchen to cook, and my landlady was there, and she was shock after she saw me, cuz she covered herself frm head to toe.
She asked, "Vivian, aren't you cold at all??" I said, "ummm, nope."
and she asked, "How come??"
I thought about it, and said, "I probably have a hot body..thats why."
.... (and there was a moment of silence)
then i said, " Ohh, i meant, i have a very heaty body, hahaha"
and she laughed.
Man.. this is wat happens when u need to translate chinese to english in ur head and forget to double check for mistakes. LOL...
U should have seen her face, it was hilarious! LOL..
I have a hot body ;)
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Cry - Kelly Clarkson
Do u guys remember when i needed to choose a song for my performance? Well yeah, at the end I chose Love Song by Sara Berellies. Victor introduced me a song called Cry by Kelly Clarkson that time.. he said this song made him cry. And that time I downloaded the song, and listened to it, it didn't hit me.. I was like.. Hmm this song isn't as sad as i thought.. I was wrong.
Maybe that time i didn't really concentrate on the song..
But last night, I was bored, and so i played and listened to all of the music from my computer.
And i played games on msn with C'Kay, we were having so much fun.. and then this song played..
and it hit me. HIT ME HARD! i suddenly felt so emotional.. I was like.. omg this song is so sad, and repeated it over and over again, to listen to the lyrics clearer.. and so.. i grew more and more emotional.
It's amazing how a song can change your mood so suddenly.. and so quickly. (mayb it's juz me, i dono.) But yeah, I suddenly became sad.. and cried while playing game. SO ANNOYING! I really dono wats wrong with me, can cry so easily. C'Kay's right.. i'm such a 'ham pao'. Really need to change already.
But yeah, the song is soo stuck in my head, i cried even harder thinking of my mom and dad (although its a break up song) and my family. I lost control.. n went really gloomy. But then thanks to C'Kay again, I was ok after that.
Haihs.. falling sick already, i think its becoz i dehydrate d.. didnt drink enough water. *cough cough*
Maybe that time i didn't really concentrate on the song..
But last night, I was bored, and so i played and listened to all of the music from my computer.
And i played games on msn with C'Kay, we were having so much fun.. and then this song played..
and it hit me. HIT ME HARD! i suddenly felt so emotional.. I was like.. omg this song is so sad, and repeated it over and over again, to listen to the lyrics clearer.. and so.. i grew more and more emotional.
It's amazing how a song can change your mood so suddenly.. and so quickly. (mayb it's juz me, i dono.) But yeah, I suddenly became sad.. and cried while playing game. SO ANNOYING! I really dono wats wrong with me, can cry so easily. C'Kay's right.. i'm such a 'ham pao'. Really need to change already.
But yeah, the song is soo stuck in my head, i cried even harder thinking of my mom and dad (although its a break up song) and my family. I lost control.. n went really gloomy. But then thanks to C'Kay again, I was ok after that.
Haihs.. falling sick already, i think its becoz i dehydrate d.. didnt drink enough water. *cough cough*
Saturday, April 18, 2009
My landlady
She hates me!! I can see it frm her eyes, she's gonna kill me someday!!
Thanks to my friend.. T__T now my landlady hates me!
My landlady is a Korean who lives in this house too.
She's an over 30 yr old Korean lady and she's still thinking if she should study Master n stuff..
She's a very nice lady, but u know one thing..(im not being mean or anything) but i've come to understand from wat i saw from the Korean dramas.. that Koreans can get really pissed and show you their "cheh" face.. u know wat i mean? No?? Dont mind that. >_<
So yeah, we were fine until that very night... My friend asked me out for dinner with her boyfriend. So I agreed and went with them.
We went for bubble tea (*so nice!*) and chatted a bit, and they dropped me home at around 11 plus.. She hopped down the car.. and i figured she wanna come to my house, but my housemate and landlady were already asleep, and i didn't wanna make any noise to wake them, and it'll be awkward cuz my landlady.. she doesn't have a room to herself. She sleeps in the living room!! And so i said, "Umm.. your boyfriend seems pretty tired, and it's pretty late now, u guys better go home :) thanks for dropping me, bye~!" No reaction frm her.. =_=" and the bf saw his gf got off the car.. now he shuts the car engine and locks the door!! I was speechless.
Then, we walked til my house door and i said again, "Umm, u guys sure u wanna come in? It's not that convenient cuz people in the house are asleep.. and its pretty late."
The girl said, "Ha? Ohh.." but took off her shoes!! >_< ok i don't blame her. Maybe its my fault.. cuz she's not very bright, she's famous for her dumb.. uh, i mean, blurness. I should have just said, "GO HOME U CANT COME IN!!" (heck, wats with the guy for not being able to read my mind n drive his precious home?!) And the guy took off his shoes, too. =_="
I acted like a theif unlocking the door n walked into the living room.. there.. followed 2 unwelcomed guests.
Well, i guess if they insist, i'll just let them come in, and so i turned around n said "SHHHHH" to make sure they dun make any sound. And sleeping on the mattress in the living room.. my sleeping landlady~
We went upstairs to my room. I had NO idea why they just wont go home and let me rest T__T instead, the girl asked me to turn on the laptop n put on some Jay Chou music. We saw a friend online.. and webcammed with her for a few minutes.. and my friend's phone rang.
I swear that was the loudest ringtone ever. Is she deaf or something to need to volume her ringtone so loud? She talked on the phone.. never considered about those who were asleep. I stared at her and said, "shhhh!"... that was probably a not-so-affective stare.. she kept on talking loud.
At last! They'r going home. I sent them to the door downstairs.. and found my landlady sleeping.. on the sofa this time. SHIT! She saw them! She must have heard all the noise and woke up. I hurried upstairs n closed the door.
The next day, I was cooking in the kitchen. My landlady stared at me.. and.. she said, "Vivian, can I ask you a favor?" O__O IM SCREWED.
She said, "Can you not bring any male friend back at night when we're all asleep? You know i'm sleeping in the living room and it's awkward for a guy to.. bla bla bla bla"
I tried to defence myself.. but this was when she showed me the typical Korean way of getting pissed - the "cheh" face. >_< I shut up and apologized.. "im sorry, i wont do it again"
T__T i didnt wanna die, the knifes here are sharp.
I sms my friend after that. I was kinda pissed..
She didn't reply. Saw her online, but she didnt mention it til today. =_=
I guess it's my fault.. for not being able to reject firmly.. i need to work on that!!
Thanks to my friend.. T__T now my landlady hates me!
My landlady is a Korean who lives in this house too.
She's an over 30 yr old Korean lady and she's still thinking if she should study Master n stuff..
She's a very nice lady, but u know one thing..(im not being mean or anything) but i've come to understand from wat i saw from the Korean dramas.. that Koreans can get really pissed and show you their "cheh" face.. u know wat i mean? No?? Dont mind that. >_<
So yeah, we were fine until that very night... My friend asked me out for dinner with her boyfriend. So I agreed and went with them.
We went for bubble tea (*so nice!*) and chatted a bit, and they dropped me home at around 11 plus.. She hopped down the car.. and i figured she wanna come to my house, but my housemate and landlady were already asleep, and i didn't wanna make any noise to wake them, and it'll be awkward cuz my landlady.. she doesn't have a room to herself. She sleeps in the living room!! And so i said, "Umm.. your boyfriend seems pretty tired, and it's pretty late now, u guys better go home :) thanks for dropping me, bye~!" No reaction frm her.. =_=" and the bf saw his gf got off the car.. now he shuts the car engine and locks the door!! I was speechless.
Then, we walked til my house door and i said again, "Umm, u guys sure u wanna come in? It's not that convenient cuz people in the house are asleep.. and its pretty late."
The girl said, "Ha? Ohh.." but took off her shoes!! >_< ok i don't blame her. Maybe its my fault.. cuz she's not very bright, she's famous for her dumb.. uh, i mean, blurness. I should have just said, "GO HOME U CANT COME IN!!" (heck, wats with the guy for not being able to read my mind n drive his precious home?!) And the guy took off his shoes, too. =_="
I acted like a theif unlocking the door n walked into the living room.. there.. followed 2 unwelcomed guests.
Well, i guess if they insist, i'll just let them come in, and so i turned around n said "SHHHHH" to make sure they dun make any sound. And sleeping on the mattress in the living room.. my sleeping landlady~
We went upstairs to my room. I had NO idea why they just wont go home and let me rest T__T instead, the girl asked me to turn on the laptop n put on some Jay Chou music. We saw a friend online.. and webcammed with her for a few minutes.. and my friend's phone rang.
I swear that was the loudest ringtone ever. Is she deaf or something to need to volume her ringtone so loud? She talked on the phone.. never considered about those who were asleep. I stared at her and said, "shhhh!"... that was probably a not-so-affective stare.. she kept on talking loud.
At last! They'r going home. I sent them to the door downstairs.. and found my landlady sleeping.. on the sofa this time. SHIT! She saw them! She must have heard all the noise and woke up. I hurried upstairs n closed the door.
The next day, I was cooking in the kitchen. My landlady stared at me.. and.. she said, "Vivian, can I ask you a favor?" O__O IM SCREWED.
She said, "Can you not bring any male friend back at night when we're all asleep? You know i'm sleeping in the living room and it's awkward for a guy to.. bla bla bla bla"
I tried to defence myself.. but this was when she showed me the typical Korean way of getting pissed - the "cheh" face. >_< I shut up and apologized.. "im sorry, i wont do it again"
T__T i didnt wanna die, the knifes here are sharp.
I sms my friend after that. I was kinda pissed..
She didn't reply. Saw her online, but she didnt mention it til today. =_=
I guess it's my fault.. for not being able to reject firmly.. i need to work on that!!
Friday, April 17, 2009
friday nite
LOL i took a hot bath just now.. cuz i had running nose, its pretty cold here!
I got into my pajamas n realized.. Geez.. i really have a special taste and the coolest fashion trend ever!!
I'm wearing a light green Winnie the Pooh pajamas (mom bought.. not me) more like night gown.. (those long big T-shirt looking pajamas that goes down to above ur knees) and wearing pink fluffy socks with white stripes.. =_= i was looking at myself in the mirror.. THANK GOODNESS i only wear this at home.
but hey.. i look cool ;) HAHA..
*ah chooo!!*
I got into my pajamas n realized.. Geez.. i really have a special taste and the coolest fashion trend ever!!
I'm wearing a light green Winnie the Pooh pajamas (mom bought.. not me) more like night gown.. (those long big T-shirt looking pajamas that goes down to above ur knees) and wearing pink fluffy socks with white stripes.. =_= i was looking at myself in the mirror.. THANK GOODNESS i only wear this at home.
but hey.. i look cool ;) HAHA..
*ah chooo!!*
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
T__T
ASSIGNMENT ASSIGNMENT and ASSIGNMENT!!!
T__T
i dono how to write essays n i hate writing essays.
especially putting citations and referencings.. :(
i dono how~~~ haihz.
T__T
i dono how to write essays n i hate writing essays.
especially putting citations and referencings.. :(
i dono how~~~ haihz.
Monday, April 13, 2009
back and alive..
Sorry guys for not been able to update my blog for such a long time.
I'm back now.. and alive.
I mean, i've been here but now im back to writing blog again.
Something happened in my family and it struck me real bad..
I kept thinking these days.. about life.. that it is unfair, and nothing is perfect and all..
i dont blame life, in fact i found myself very lucky enough to have wat i own now.
I dono wat im typing here.. cuz im sitting here eyes filled with tears.. again.
I hate myself for being so weak. I acted strong in front of my family since im the eldest and i have the responsibility to protect my brother n my mom. I acted like nothing happened.. and smiled when i talked to mom. Cuz i didnt wana make her feel sad again and i dont want her to worry abt me. But im sitting here crying again.
I hate lonely nights. I hate the feeling that no one's here when i needed a shoulder. I hate myself for acting strong when i'm actually not, and telling my friends im fine and in fact im crying while typing. Im juz so messed up. My friend's right. He said I'm just acting tough, im in fact a crybaby.
I miss my family, I miss home, I miss mom, I miss my brother, and my dad.. I miss the old us. Before we went overseas. Before we went to Shanghai. We were happier then.
well i guess life is hard but things will get better.. i keep telling myself that.
I'll be fine, cuz i know im not fine now and i cant be fine now.
Yeah.. I'll be fine.
I'm back now.. and alive.
I mean, i've been here but now im back to writing blog again.
Something happened in my family and it struck me real bad..
I kept thinking these days.. about life.. that it is unfair, and nothing is perfect and all..
i dont blame life, in fact i found myself very lucky enough to have wat i own now.
I dono wat im typing here.. cuz im sitting here eyes filled with tears.. again.
I hate myself for being so weak. I acted strong in front of my family since im the eldest and i have the responsibility to protect my brother n my mom. I acted like nothing happened.. and smiled when i talked to mom. Cuz i didnt wana make her feel sad again and i dont want her to worry abt me. But im sitting here crying again.
I hate lonely nights. I hate the feeling that no one's here when i needed a shoulder. I hate myself for acting strong when i'm actually not, and telling my friends im fine and in fact im crying while typing. Im juz so messed up. My friend's right. He said I'm just acting tough, im in fact a crybaby.
I miss my family, I miss home, I miss mom, I miss my brother, and my dad.. I miss the old us. Before we went overseas. Before we went to Shanghai. We were happier then.
well i guess life is hard but things will get better.. i keep telling myself that.
I'll be fine, cuz i know im not fine now and i cant be fine now.
Yeah.. I'll be fine.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Confessions of a Broken Heart lyrics
Confessions of a Broken Heart
I wait for the postman to bring me a letter
I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
A family in crisis that only grows older
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart
And I wear all your old clothes, your polo sweater
I dream of another you
The one who would never (never)
Leave me alone to pick up the pieces
A daddy to hold me, that's what I needed
So why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go!!
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don't know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me
Cause these are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart
I love you, I love you
I love you
I....!!!!!
I love you!!
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don't know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth...
Did you ever love me!!!?
Did you ever love me?
These are.....
The confessions...of a broken heart
Ohhh....yeah
I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..
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